…And since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.-Hebrews 10:22, NIV
Well, I know Someone who does! But I can’t see Him! –Well, maybe I don’t have to, yet. These are the moments He wants me to draw nearer and take my loads off…Honestly, this hurts. Well, telling God what hurts me HURTS!?!? Where did I heard THAT FROM!?!? Ack, this is a bit more complicated than I expected it to be. Telling Him my wants and desires is one thing, but to tell Him what wounds me (or I think wounds me)… That’s another story.
Coupled with the fact that I don’t want to be a two-faced jerk (which only hurts me even more), there is no other choice but to let go of my barriers and let God work it out from there. (Boy, this is making me feel a *grr* in my stomach as I’m writing this.) Being true to Him is the first start of being true to the world, trying to reach closer to God not on our strength, but on His.
I don’t know if I’m making any sense to you at this moment. I’m not expecting you to, not by a long shot. I don’t even know what’s ailing you –if it is something you want to hide, or a pain that’s eating you up, or a pseudo-stupid fear of letting church people know you love rock music-,but I guess it’s time to ‘fess up and be real to God, the world, and ourselves.
Blessings from Puerto Rico, and your cristino preferido,
José E.