Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. (Psalm 51:2,NIV)
Oh, yeah! I saw my friends again, and I finally can make up the work I needed to do. Although, the joy cancelled out when I unknowingly lied to some of my friends where I was leaving (I was going to Orlando, not to Puerto Rico). Either then, I told a rude comment to another friend of mine…in English. Details can be told, but it’s not important… Truth is, I sinned…badly.
I trust in a God who cleans and washes sin. But I also believe in a just and holy God, whom disciplines us while cleaning us from the inside out. Now that the (actual) Lent starts, I want to give up sin. (I know; I don’t hold much of its traditions, yadda yadda…) In truth, I want to give up sin for GOOD!
I don’t know where to start. (Cue “fasting”, “prayer”, “Bible”, and the clichéd responses whose truths are evident.) What cliché will answer my plea? There are a lot of things I want to give up, but it’s easy to become vocal and do nothing about it. Sin is one of those suckers that taint our day. Are we perfect, or even faultless? I do not expect to be faultless; I do expect to be blameless.
I am justified by grace, nothing more, not by our own. This is where surrender starts to rush in: when we realize that we’re impotent to do ANYTHING on our known; we know then that we need Somebody to puke and purge us out of anything that undermines Himself. I will to be puked and purged until I conform to Him. Fear sets in, fear collides, but nothing can take me away from Him. I know that He stands alone, but I know I can’t stand without Him.
I’m willing to give up the act.