My mother has rebuked me from this every time I say something with a negative connotation. It’s a great test, knowing that I will fail every time. (See?) Go to church, pray, fast, read Bible… But it’s deeper than that. It’s a challenge thinking that I won’t be perfect enough for God, and it’s confusing! I have a little bit of Israel in me. (Yes, I’m a gentile!)
It’s not racially; It’s in the attitude. Take it here:
All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, and the whole assembly said to them, “If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this desert! Why is the LORD bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword? Our wives and children will be taken as plunder. Wouldn’t it be better for us to go back to Egypt?” And they said to each other, “We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt.” (Numbers 14:2-4)
We can be so clingy and needy at times. Why people make themselves happy saying someone negative? And I HAVE TO KILL IT! Not shove it down deeper into my heart. With that, I will rely on God’s grace. But knowing that I have more blessings than aches won’t cut it! (See?) At least, His grace will cover me, and still, God will bless me anyways. He pleases that I recognize where I get an “F”, and He’ll do this for me. Moaning and grumbling won’t help me please Him, so I’ll (do my best to) slap on a smile of His love. (Wow, it really helped me!)
This is why I pray: “Cover where I fail.”