And there are the emotions.
And there is common sense and logic.
And there is convenience.
I want to break all the rules.
I want to say all my emotions.
I want to forget common sense and logic, even for a brief moment.
I want to forget what’s convenient for me to do, and do just what’s in my heart.
I want to express what I can’t express.
I want to forget about numbers and figures, names and dates.
I want to forget about applying for college or leadership programs or honor memberships or worship conferences (though I would be delighted!).
I want to forget about choosing to stay in America or go back to Puerto Rico.
I want to forget guilt and terror, sin and pain.
I want to pray with no shame, distractions or random sleeping bouts.
I want to ignore this mortal reality and live in an eternal one.
I want to forget being uncomfortable about seeing Christian events/CDs/DVDs when around with my family…and stop thinking about “lone wolves” and shout for what I am even MORE than what I do now.
I want to live my life to reflect a true religion, yet I want to enjoy it as best as I can.
I want Jesus, and I want Him now.
And I know that He wants me, with no need to, now.