He has also considered not only forgiving our sins and throwing us as the east is from the west, but He also restored us fellowship for His throne. We are not worthy of saying, “I love You, Lord”, not one bit. But He overlooked us, and decided to spare us from the incoming wrath. “I love You” is the only thing we can say.
All this week, I’ve focused on human weakness and the overcoming love of God. More than what I expected, love is never left out from our weaknesses. There is one thing that I have considered: did I said “I love You” to God lately? This part makes me confused. Again, internet hasn’t resolved much in searching how exactly do we love God, if there are any requirements. One article that I remember put up that loving God is keeping His commandments. It’s not pointless, in fact, it’s true; however, this also strains me to guilt, for the fact that I need to keep doing His commandments to show that I love Him. Also, my mind is not helping. “I love You” can become an “I hate You”! This is becoming annoying!
Thus, I overshadowed saying a simple three-letter phrase, because I needed to say it from the heart so that it could count. Until today in the wee hours of the night. After we watched Muriel’s Wedding (great movie!), we watched a bit of the Golden Girls (great show!), but I was feeling sleepy since 10. I decided to go to bed, but my sister woke me up with a prank of hers. Although I felt distressed, I pulled up and moved to my uncle’s bed (my sister sleeps in there, he’s still in the hospital) with my new favorite white sheet. Before falling asleep like a rock, this pondering thought made my mind somehow. Was I cold to His love, just because I was intimidated to say “I love You”?
(Until recently, it’s rare for me to write long posts.) I woke up this morning, and this thought of three simple words is still hovering over the brain. Is God really working out my fear for loving without being self-conscious? I think. With three simple words… “I…Love…You…” I repeated some short, uncountable times. Though God wants more than sacrifices, He wants us to see the bounty of love he has for us.
I guess I should put these words up in my “Mamu-vernacular!” I love You, Lord, and I shout it to the Heavens!