“Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:6-9)
Everytime I go to church, I hear plans of a “directiva” or a group to lead for August. With all plans of going here and there, it makes me feel bad, because I can’t share with them. It makes me sad every time I leave the church and appreciate the road of houses across to the Pueblo. Even though I’m happy, I’m… sad. Let’s say, bittersweet. I hit a picture on my cellphone, and I say: “I’ll miss this”. Worse: I’m leaving by late August to September-faster than I thought!
I know; it’s getting boring and annoying. Self-seclusion won’t vent much of my frustrations and secrets. But God knows.
I now realize it’s an adventure serving Him. Not only I’ll go to another place, but I have dreams -somewhat crazy- that may be on His will. He will never leave me (Matthew 28:20), and I can say to Him everything I want -be it in Spanish, English or in a conglang. Why would I deny His name in me? He covers where I fail, where I can’t reach.
It’s an adventure just knowing He is in me. What can I expect?