Sharing this experience has become a DEFCON-1 for me. I know by faith that God has touched hearts, and there’s no need to get further. God knows my pain on telling- nay,- writing such horrendous and shameful past.
But forgive-and-forget has not worked out for me. Surrendering my past to Him is harder than I thought, even with the largest of faiths. But there’s a hope:
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. (Hebrews 12:1-2)
Turn your eyes to Jesus today… Because no condemnation holds for us, and we are free by love.